tribute

 
here's a contribution from an old pal.

“read your blogspot.
lingered over the part that u shared with your new friends
and memories of similar moments that we shared flooded my mind.

really missed those moments that seemed so recent upon
refreshment and yet at the same time appears so long
time ago, almost buried with me in grave if i'm in one
now.

it's conflicting thoughts, memories, emotions and
longings like these that unsettles me at times. as
much as i wish for times of the past, it is
impossible, given the kind of life i lead now. it is
not that my present life is not worthy or less
fullfilling. it's just........different. i made the
decisions i've made so should just look forward and
not back. but being human, it's only natural that i'm
contradicted within at many a times.

well, just sharing fragments of my thoughts with u.
now i can almost visualise my daughter in future
experiencing those similar fun times i had and
relating them to me. i'll probably be responding with
a smile and sigh at the same time, recalling my own
fun girlie times with especially u at zouk after a few
drinks.

love,
uptown girl”
 
***

k, old frens, new frens, when you laugh, cry or simply
just connect with me, we just connect. 

im not going anywhere. 

in fact, ive made a point to live in such a way that if i were
to die the next moment, you would know that i’ve lived
my best.
 
my best effort to connect to u,
my best effort to experience life in my own ways,
my best effort to contribute to our specie
 
and
 
my best effort to be both so full of love and vengeance at the same time.
(think fight club). 
 
people,
i love u and i love me-self.
i am human. i love, i hate, i get angry at things.
i laugh at myself all the time. and i cry when i feel pain + sadness.
i dont like it when the ppe "worship" william hung,
i think that they are laughing at him, not with him.
i fight for very small things,
i fight for a voice to represent you.
 
+ me
 
so people
 
live ur life. and thank you for loving me.